Restoring faith.

Date 6th August 217

Time 10:00 PM

Sometimes few experiences can leave you speechless and makes you think about it. A similar incident happened with me on that Sunday evening.  I don't trust anyone, except my family of course.

So trusting a stranger with money is out of question.  

Whenever I go somewhere near my home I don't carry my cellphone or money. I don't know why I do that, may be I feel free. You also try that, just leave you phone and go outside, it's a different feeling. So I went to drop off a guest that evening on my bike and when I was returning home, at Delhi-Gurgaon toll I noticed my rear tire is punctured. My first reaction, It's a fu**ing highway how can this happen, So there I was stranded without any means of communication or money ( I had 20 rupees for my cigarette which I was going to get later). With no other choice, I started to walk. It would take me 45 minutes - 1 hour to reach home given that I had to pull the bike all along. I was not in a big trouble, It was all just a big inconvenience for me. So after walking few meters I found a shop that repairs punctures. I thought why would he fix mine for 20 rupees when the rate is 40-50 approx. But I gave it a try, I explained the scenario and he said no problem he will fix it. I relaxed but I was sad because I won't be able to smoke. Then came the actual problem, evidently the tire was not punctured, the valve was rusted and leaking and we all know it can't be fixed. Only solution is a new tire tube. the cost he told me was 320 rupees. I said put it all back I will walk home. To my surprise he said he will change the tube too and I can pay him tomorrow. I can't explain what I felt. It is a very big deal for a small business owner to trust people with such amount. He went to get a new tube.

While I was thinking I remember my family would be waiting for  me, I should inform them. I only remember one number by heart, i.e my dad. Believe me you should know at least one number of someone who will come for you no matter what and that person is your father.

I asked him if I can make a phone call, he gave me his phone, before going to dialer I noticed he has Paytm installed. I asked him if he accepts Paytm ? He said yes. Problem solved, I called my dad and had him send money through paytm. I didn't even have to pay him my cigarette money :)

So he fixed my bike.

With increasing crime/fraud rate it is impossible to trust anyone. But we still should. 

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.  Forgive them anyway.

            If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.  Be kind anyway.

            If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.  Succeed anyway.

           If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.  Be honest and sincere anyway.

            What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.  Create anyway.

            If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.  Be happy anyway.

            The good you do today, will often be forgotten.  Do good anyway.

         Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.  Give your best anyway.

         In the final analysis, it is between you and God.  It was never between you and them anyway.

-this version is credited to Mother Teresa

Vivek Choudhary


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Dealing with Heartbreak Part - 1

It's a long time since I've stopped writing...
but sometimes it's the only thing you can do, everything else looks so damn boring.

After so many years on this earth, still, it's hard for me to know people, so many people betrayed me. I should learn from my mistakes but I still do the same mistakes, I love I care I protect but I've my own ways to do such things people may think of me as an immature ignorant arrogant bastard because most of the time I don't give a flying fuck to situations, people, responsibilities but actually, I do, I may not show it all the time, I actually love, I actually care, I actually worry. 


When I was in school there was this girl I was madly in love with, after many years I realized that I was barking up the wrong tree. Then I stopped barking. There's this "best friend" who showed his true colors later just for money, and many more situations were there, and they all were enough to make me a hermit. So I became one. Everything was so damn cool and simple for e.g don't have to worry about replying to texts, totally ignoring missed calls on purpose, don't care about giving time and being there on time. In simple words I became a stone, I remember I did not cry at all from January 2012 to June 2013. I was that strong.

Then something happened, In my fucking awesome life someone came and actually made it awesome. It was all so sudden that I changed within days, I still cannot figure out if the change is good or bad, but yes I hardly smoke or drink now, I can sit in a park and smile at playing little kids. But then comes the sick part of it, I can deal with physical pain but that thing with the nervous system is something that can drive a person insane, Law of attraction goes under the bed when such things happen, maybe I was wrong maybe it is all my fault but all I want is peace, I don't want things too complicated, I hate everything that is complicated e.g c++ coding or numerical analysis. Well, the irony is I cannot write what I actually wanted to write, I am writing all this shit that hardly makes sense.



Have a good day, fellas.

If you want a book I recommend The Modern Breakup  by Daniel Chiliac